I began to explain how some similar feelings from when my life was in a waiting period for my "husband" to now when thinking about my ex-husband... I felt sad. I actually cried in anger.
As my life has continued & blossomed into God's original design, my prayers for this man have changed, yet stayed the same. Reconciliation to God- to see his full potential as Christ designed him. To see- to hear- to know the love of God.
My anger is a righteous anger- one that comes with the passion in a heart that is yielded toward God & therefore angry at the things that anger Him.
I think of what the enemy has tried to accomplish & I laugh!
You have no hold on me- You have stolen nothing from me! You do not win... remember?!
I hear him taunt me saying, "but your marriage is demolished & ruined. you are alone. and I have him. he is mine."
I have pondered on that.
Is he his?
I was reminded by my mother tonight that he is not ignorant of the Truth. He does know and believe.
And we know- the purpose of all of this was to bring you (april) into right alignment with God, as well as him too. Our greatest weapon & most effective job is to pray for him as He desires.
As my tears of anger rolled down my cheeks- I explained that I was angry at what the enemy had done & how he holds ever so tightly on what does not belong to him
I may not be able to make him see or say the words to change his mind or be able to do anything in this realm... BUT... I will pray!
Mom saw the Lion rise as I spoke of my anger for him.
The Lion rises.
His anger is very present.
He is coming to take back what is His.He is coming!
As I picture the Lion, I am at peace.
It is no ironic fate that my new study is Lioness Arising...
I am excited to see what God does with this Lioness as He teaches her to rise